When did it come to this?

Ok... so it's my day off. I had lots planned and had no motivation. I did take care of a few minor things... like change the lightbulb in my closet, change the kitty box, pick up in my room, take my figures up to the shed along with some lawn chairs and that's about it. I didn't make supper because mom had said we had pizza coming. So I was just kinda chillin' this evening and warming up some leftovers to kinda munch on because I hadn't eaten all day when mom comes in and tells me that she wants me to come help her work with the dog. I said I was warming up something to eat and that started all the fun this evening....

"Why are you doing that now when you knew I'd want your help? We talked about this just a bit ago." "Because I'm hungry and you were nowhere in sight?" *icy glare*

So we go and work on training the dog a while....

"Well, what are we gona do about supper?" "I didn't cook because you said pizza was coming tonight." "Well it's not here and I suppose you're not hungry now." "No, I'm hungry. That was the first food I've had all day." "Well let's come up with a plan."

So I sat there waiting for her to decide what she wanted. The phone rings and it's my sister. Mom is talking to her so I decide that i'm gonna take the opportunity to take some things to the grandparent's.

"I'll be right back. I'm gonna go up to Pap and Gram's for a minute." "Alright... but what about supper?" "I'll be right back and we can decide."

So I come home after maybe fifteen minutes.

"So I guess we're not gonna eat tonight? I'll be d***ed if I'm gonna cook while you sat on your a** all day!" "You told me not to cook because we were getting pizza. If you want me to go get something i'll go!"

Then she just left... went to her bedroom.

*sighs* I'm glad they told me at work that I'll be getting more nights. It makes life at home easier. I don't hafta play these kinds of games.

I'm outtie for now!

In Pursuit of Passion

Yeah... I've had a long night and a long talk with a good friend. I've been reminded that life is about seeking your passions... Passions for living, for learning, for each other.... whatever. Hiding behind our walls that we build to keep from getting hurt only stunts our growth and makes our vision grow dim. I thank that friend and only hope that I can muster the courage to venture outside of my own little walled world.


"i've been lookin' for my mrs. right
but she don't exist
chemistry is everything
and we're anything but this
maybe i have crossed your path
to sweep you off your feet
or maybe i'm the reason
why you cry at night before you sleep
but i believe that you and me
could be so happy and free
inside a world of misery"

*bows and blows kisses* You know who you are!

The Scoundrel to the office, please!

So yeah.... on the upside, I got some much needed rest and feel much better today than I have in days. The drawback here is that I overslept, went to work three hours late and well.... ended up in the office with three slightly upset management types. *huge grin* Somehow I'm strangely ok with the whole thing. Fire me! Do me a favor, please!!! I didn't really get into trouble, no verbal warning, no coaching, write-up or anything... We had a "conversation" regarding my tardiness as of late. The fact that I work six to ten days straight with a schedule that looks like someone blew up a clock has nothing to do with me being tardy... or the fact that I am extremely disenchanted with our company and how things are handled couldn't be affecting that either. Nope. It's that I'm an irresponsible scoundrel! LOL! Anyway, I was told that I'm too valuable an associate to be having these kinds of troubles. That I need to be taking on more of a leadership role and setting a good example being that I'm the most tenured person in our dept. including our dept. mgr. Whatever! I'm sooo ready to get outta that hole! It's scary that even my mom doesn't care about my job anymore... she says that if I get fired I'll hafta just do something else. I'm liking that idea.

Anyway... nothing more really to report today. I'm off the next two days and I plan on having some fun. I have tons of figures to pack away again and I'm gonna play games. I'm outtie!

Theory of chaotic connection

So yeah... work tonight. *shakes head* That place sucks monkey butt... a big one. A big funky monkey butt! The customers are retarded, the management has their heads up their own behinds and we have idiots who think they are EVERYONE'S boss. But I digress.... The situation with the girl from jewlery is getting even more odd than it was... I did talk to my coworker about her and he's promised to talk to her tomorrow. She left early tonight because she was emotionally a wreck... her husband is moving out tonight. I want left out of it... bad things are to come... I can feel it.

On the upside today, I got my game exchanged. I can't wait to get some time to sit and play it. I also got all my other errands taken care of so I'm proud of me! ;-)

I've been inundated with relationships lately. People starting them, couples breaking up, friends seeking them.... *sighs* I've come to believe that somehow we all are connected on this planet by this chase and catch game. I read a friend's live journal and he expressed a philosophy I've tried to adopt but have had some setbacks in keeping to. The philosophy goes like this.... I'm no longer actively searching, looking, or chasing... The ladies will now come to me as I sit back and wait. It's so true... I'm to that point where I don't care anymore... I'd love to have someone to care about and for and to have them do the same for me... but if it's not gonna happen... then so be it. I wash my hands of the whole thing. I'll continue to admire the ladies from a purely aesthetic view but I will not pursue.

Oh well... I'm outtie for now!

What's the secret?

So yeah... made it through my night at work.

The girl in jewlery is kinda having some personal issues... I don't want to say too much even though only like one of you would know her. She and her hubby are splitting up and she has the biggest crush on one of the guys at work. So of course she wants me to talk to him... How do I end up these situations?

Rachel came into work tonight. I hadn't really gotten to talk to her the last time I saw her so... Here's the news... she's engaged. We had a LONG talk about her, her sister, her family and me. It was quite intriguing and informative. Those of you who don't know the whole story... please don't ask, it's too complex.

Oh yeah... my obsession seems to be growing... I bought more star wars figures tonight. Missing one in the numerical order so I'm gonna have to go hunting now.

I'm planning on going to the bank and to EB tomorrow before work. I guess I'll hafta actually get some sleep, so..... I'm outtie!

I'm back, baby!

Ok.. so I'm not quite 100% just yet, but I am feeling better. I'm gonna go to work tonight... or at least try. The real bummer is the fact that I lost my overtime. Since I called off sick yesterday, I lost my overtime pay that I worked so hard to get. Oh well... life goes on.

In case you didn't notice, I've added more links to the page. I have noticed too that a few of my friends have gone to the same style of blog I have been using since the beginning. I feel like such a trend setter... LOL! Anyway, I'm out for now!

I hate being sick!

If anyone has wondered why I haven't been around... it's because I've been curled up in my bed hoping the waves of nausea will pass. I turn into such a baby when I'm sick... I admit it. I just want to be nursed and nurtured until I feel better. I want orange juice and chicken soup and to just be checked on periodically. Other than that... I hope I have enough energy to entertain myself.

Ok... I'm crawling back off to my death bed now. (it's actually not that bad, just the flu)

Highs of Awesomeness and Lows of Bummerness!

So... a great day mixed with some downers. Got Star Wars at midnight... The dvd set and the three figure collections that go with it. I went to the store in my jedi cloak and freaked out a few people. It was GREAT! I came home and watched ANH and fell asleep watchin ESB. Slept for a few hours and then went out to buy SW Battlefront and the new VACO cd. Bought both at the local mall. FYE at the mall only received two copies of Ok to Go and I bought one. The big bummer of the day is this... my copy of Battlefront doesn't work properly... I need to return it. I'm hoping EB will take it back and give me a copy for X-Box.

Anyway... I don't have much else to say... except that I'm getting to keep my overtime and I wanna just play video games forever! LOL! I'm outtie!

Scoundrel Math

Ok, so I'm close to being dead right about now. Why? All because of scoundrel mathematics...

Five = a normal day's coverage at work in our dept.
Two = the number of call-offs due to the flooding around here

So...

5-2= 13 hour shift for me

Thirteen hour shift should equal five hours of overtime pay plus five hours of Sunday premuim... but I'm not sure it will. It could only be the five hours of Sunday premium... which means I worked an extra five hours for a lousy $5!

And THAT, my friends, is scoundrel mathematics!

*collapses into his bed*

Hello, Bed!

So yeah... as the title implies, I've been sooo tired lately. I can't figure out why... *chuckles* besides the lack of sleep nothing has changed. ;-p These turnarounds at work at killers, close and then open... although I must say, I've had the privilege of leaving early the past coupla times I've had to do it so... I can't complain too much.

What have I been up to? Watching movies and playing some more DoD... yes, the game I'm obsessed with, addicted to, or whatever. Tonight even with being like next thing to dead, tired... I had a 3 to 1 kill ratio... either those guys sucked or I'm half way decent at that game. I think I'm gonna pop in a movie and probably fall asleep. I have this stack of movies that I bought and am slowly working my way through...

Oh! Before I forget... I'm very excited! If you remember I had catalogued all my star wars action figures... The latest collection is the OTC (original trilogy collection) I had been missing four of the figures which I bought today... I now have otc numbers 1-28 in numerical order... I think that's the entire first wave... Yeah.. you probably don't care but it excites me! ;-p

I'm out!

Lonely Road of Faith

Ok, so I stole that title from Kid Rock but I don't care. ;-p It seems appropriate as of late so... *smirks*

Lessee... where shall I start? I guess with the major load of crap going on at work. It's been what's making the maddest lately. You all know what I think of our store manager... he's an egocentric, self-promoting, backstabbing, lying sonuva jackal. Well, as I might or might not have told you, he was under investigation and wasn't being allowed back into the store until these issues were resolved and as you might know he's back. *nods* I've found out more about what he was being investigated for and I got more and more upset. He's back and saying that all this is in the past, we're all starting all over and just majorly blowing smoke up everyone's backside. He was under investigation for a series of loss prevention and ethical improprieties ranging from stealing from the associates, fraud, forging documents and so on.... Well, I was reading the monthly newsletter that wal-mart stores inc. puts out the other day and almost died laughing because of how much the leaders of our company were stressing ethics and doing the right thing and here is this idiot who has been allowed to keep his job after these types of issues were brought to his superiors attention. The real kicker now though is the CBL (computer based learning) module that we all have to take about our company's statement of ethics. What a crock!!! When this sort of thing is allowed to take place and the management isn't held to at least the same standard that the hourly associates are, what is the point?

On another front... I need to move out. I know I keep saying it. It just gets worse and worse around here... I wish I could afford to have my own place.

I saw a few people tonight and yesterday that I haven't seen in a while. They each brought back some memories and some emotions. I don't wanna get too personal here so... I'll just shut up but before I do I wanna say that one of them asked me about my dad... I almost cried. She was trying to be friendly and catch up but... it just hit me hard. I should be used to the idea that he's gone... but I'm not. I miss ya, Dad!

I'm concerned about a few of my internet friends. Each for a different reason but I want them to know that they are in my thoughts and prayers... always.

Now... I think that's about everything I wanted to talk about so... I'm outtie!

My Way: Limp Bizkit (edited)

special, you think you're special you do, i can see it in your eyes i can see it when you laugh at me look down on me and, you walk around on me just one more fight about your leadership and i will straight up leave your sh*t cause i've had enough of this and now i'm pi**ed (yeah)this time i'm a let it all come out this time i'm a stand up and shout i'm a do things my way, it's my way, my way or the highway this time i'm a let it all come out this time i'm a stand up and shout i'm a do things my way, it's my way, my way or the highway just one more fight about a lotta things and i will give up everything to be on my own again, free again this time i'm a let it all come out this time i'm a stand up and shout i'm a do things my way,i t's my way, my way or the highway this time i'm a let it all come out this time i'm a stand up and shout i'm a do things my way, it's my way, my way or the highway someday you'll see things my way cause you never know, no ya never know when your gonna go someday you'll see things my way cause you never know, no ya never know when your gonna go just one more fight and i'll be history yes i will straight up leave your sh*t and you'll be the one who's left missing me (yeah)this time i'm a let it all come out this time i'm a stand up and shout i'm a do things my way, it's my way, my way or the highway this time i'm a let it all come out this time i'm a stand up and shout i'm a do things my way, it's my way, my way or the highway someday you'll see things my way cause you never know, when ya never know when your gonna go someday you'll see things my way cause you never know, when ya never know

oh what a fun night

Ok so it was a bad night at work... I don't wanna get into it but... here's a song for our store manager!




Go To Sleep: DMX, Eminem & Obie Trice (edited)

[Eminem]
I ain't gonna eat, I ain't gonna sleep
Ain't gonna breathe, til I see, what I wanna see
And what I wanna see, is you go to sleep, in the dirt
Permanently, you just being hurt, this ain't gonna work
For me, it just wouldn't be, sufficient enough
Cuz we, are just gonna be, enemies
As long as we breathe, I don't ever see, either of us
Coming to terms, where we can agree
There ain't gonna be, no reasoning, speakin wit me
You speak on my seed, then me, no speak-a ingles
So we gonna beef, and keep on beefin, unless
You're gonna agree, to meet with me in the flesh
And settle this face to face, and you're gonna see
A demon unleashed in me, that you've never seen
And you're gonna see, this gangster beat on himself
I see you D-12, and thanks, but me need no help
Me do this one all by my lonely, I don't need fifteen of my homies
When I see you, I'm seeing you, me and you only
We never met, but best believe you gon know me
When I'm this close, to see you exposed as phony
Come on, bi**h, show me, pick me up, throw me
Lift me up, hold me, just like you told me
You was gonna do, that's what I thought, you're pitiful
I'm rid of you, all of you, Ja, you'll get it too!

[Chorus]
Now go to sleep bi**h!
Die, motherf***er, die! Ugh, time's up, bi**h, close ya eyes
Go to sleep, bi**h! (what?)
Why are you still alive? How many times I gotta say, close ya eyes?
And go to sleep bi**h! (what?)
Die motherf***er die, bye, bye, motherf***er, bye, bye!
Go to sleep bi**h! (what?)
Why are you still alive? Why, die motherf***er, ah, ah, ah...
...Go to sleep bi**h!

[Obie Trice]
We got you niggaz, nervous
On purpose, to hurt your focus, you'se not MC's, you'se worthless
You'se not them G's, you'se a circus, you'se no appeal, please
You'se curtains, you use words, cool heard, slurred in two thousand third
You'se purpin, you'se no threat, who's ya servin?
When lyrically oughta bury you beneath the dirt when
You f**k with a label overseeing the Earth
Shady muthaf***a, O. Trice's birth
And as I mold, I become a curse
So we can put down the verse, take it to the turf
Cock and squeeze, and he who reach the hearse is he who
Depicts fiction in his verse
And as I breathe, and you be deceased
The world believe you deceived just to speak
You'se not the streets, you'se the desk
Use not your chest nigga, use a vest
Before two's choose ya rest, you chose death
Six feet deep, nigga, that's the debt

[Chorus]

[DMX]
Hey dog, I'ma walk like a beast, talk like the streets
I'ma stay blazin New York wit the heat
Stalk on the beat, walk wit my feet
Understand my pain, the rain ain't sleet
Peep how I'm moving, peep where I'm going
Sh*t don't seep, then sleep not knowin
But I'ma keep growing, getting larger than life
Easy-going with the same one that started the fight
He be knowing how dog get, when dog gon bite
Tried to show him the dog sh*t, it's dog for life
Grand champ, and my Blood Line is tight
Cuz it's all good, it's all right
Niggas tried to holla, but couldn't holla back
Now they gots to swallow, everything in the sac
Blood Line, and, we can go track for track
Da** dog, why'd you have to do them niggas like that?

[Chorus]

[Eminem]
All you motherf***ers, take that!
Here, take this too, bi**h! Uh, Uh, Uh, Uh, Waaaaaahoo
We're killing all you motherf***ers dead, all of you
Fake a** gangsters! No more press! No more press!
Rot, motherf***ers, rot! Decay, in the dirt, b**ch, in the motherf***ing dirt!
Die nameless, bi**h, die nameless! No more fame!
Ahhhhhhhhhh! Hahahaha
Yo X, come on man, Obie, let's go, haha

Walls

So yeah... It wasn't exactly a great day. Mom and I had a bit of a run in. *sighs* Happens more and more these days it seems. She decided to dust in my room today. I can understand that but of course my room is sore subject for her. She gets.... cranky. I got upset because she wanted to move things and throw them out and... *sighs* I got upset, she got cranky and well... it wasn't cool. Why can't she just leave my room be? I mean, just let me live like a slob in my personal space. I don't care what she does with her space, why should she care about mine?

And today being Sunday... you know what that means. Spending time at the grandparent's. A usual Sun. night for me. Nothing much to report. I think I'm gonna go play some DoD and then head for bed.

Oh, but before I leave.... here's what I wrote tonight.

"THE WALLS"


Remembering those days gone past
I sheltered in the shadows these walls cast
Nestled safe from all of life’s harms
Happily secured from all that alarms
The world slowly keeps turning
And the fires just continue burning
What was once a protective shell
Closes in and becomes a prison cell
Looking only for a pleasant escape
These dark clouds over me drape
Losing what’s left of my sanity
All for the sake of your vanity
I wish it wasn’t thus
I pray somehow we can rescue us
For now I only want to fly
Being trapped here I can only die

Oh Yeah! Gotta Dance!

So alright... today was a very good day... not quite perfect but we'll get to that.

As I told you, we went up to the antique machinery show today. The sea of cars that we had to cross just to get the gate was kinda cool...lol We got in to the flea market and began to walk around as we do every year. We kinda lazily were checking out the first of like four million rows of vendors and then we stopped to have some lunch. I love the gyros they serve up there... soooo good! We wandered around and I was seeking out things to feed my Star Wars obsession. I found and purchased Seth's Christmas present (so if you're reading this... ;-p). I then emptied my wallet once I found someone selling SW figures. He had them marked at $5, I picked up twelve, and he took $45 for the lot... woohoo! *dances happily* So we had a good day out up there today.

The bad news for today is this... I got sunburnt up there. It really feels weird. My face is bright red and tight as a drum... LOL! Also, Penn State stunk it up and lost. :-( oh well... I should be used to it after the past coupla years... but I grew up with PSU kicking major tail... I don't like it like this!

Anyway... I think I'm off to update my figure checklist and then to play some DoD! But before I leave... I wanna post this too.

"Shepherds we shall be for thee, my Lord, for thee. Power hath descended forth from Thy hand; So feet may swiftly carry out Thy commands. We will flow a river forth to Thee, And teeming with souls shall it ever be. In Nomeni Patri Et Fili Spiritus Sancti"

woohoo!!!

It's been a good coupla days... This might come out a little disjointed but here goes! I got BOTH my packages from starwarsshop.com, my mic is fixed on my comp, and I'm hearing that our idiot store manager might actually get the boot. Got to hang with Seth some the other day and I'm looking into a new monitor to make my gaming experience that much better....lol

I watched the Punisher last night... Great movie!

Oh! We're going to the antique machinery show this Sat. *grins* That means HUGE flea market and probably more star wars stuff for me! Also Penn State doesn't play until that evening so I'll actually get to watch the game!

Ummm... There's more stuff I should write but if you haven't noticed... this whole blog thing is kinda slipping. I don't know what to say half the time because NOTHING goes on in my life.

I'm out!

Perfected Soul

Sifting through the sands of time
Wondering what components combine
Remembering things not as they were
But like a lion with teddy bear fur
Yesterday’s gone with merely a sigh
Leaving only hopes that just slowly die
Twisted reality casually turns
As the fires of emotion hotly burn
When did the fickle fates conspire?
How deep is the green quagmire?
Sinking back into what used to be
Only by feeling do we then truly see
Losing touch with what once was
Grasping freely for a future abuzz
Now being tainted by toxic then
Vowing to never forget again
All that was, complete and whole
Tortured, tormented, perfected soul

--- Cory

Enter: stage right

So I'm here blogging with nothing in mind to say. You all know that I lead a pretty boring life. I sleep, work and play DoD. So what has put some excitement into my life lately? Well... my order has been shipped from starwarsshop.com and should arrive in a day or two, I called Nic and got to talk to her a bit and I've been chatting quite a bit again. I really should call my friend Phil... I haven't talked to him a while. He's called a few times and I haven't been around. Oh! I never did tell you guys that my friend Jackie is back from Hawaii. She had moved out there with her fiance back in Jan. I hadn't seen nor heard from her really since... and the other night she just showed up at work. I missed her... she's too cool. Hopefully she and Amy and I will get to get together sometime soon and catch up. I've missed our little outings. We always end up acting like idiots and then people ask us if we've been drinking. ;) Yeah... I think that's about as much as I can think of to ramble about so.... I'm off to play DoD!