Beyond Broken

What can you call it when your heart is beyond broken? The last two months have been a blur. Time twisted into an incomprehensible haze and the only anchor for me and my sanity was you. Now I feel like that lone tie is slowly fraying. Adrift, amongst my sorrow, thoughts and fears. Where can I turn when you don't seem to be there? I know you want to be, but every time I look to you, you're gone. Perhaps you're trying to keep your own anguish at bay and I cannot fault you for that. I do not want to add to your pain by what I feel. You have suffered even worse than I and your healing I hold in greateast regard. Without you, I have nothing. Yes, I have those I care about, but only you complete me. I beg you just to come to me once in a while, so I may medicate my pain with you.