Digging deeper just to throw it away

Here I sit, feeling like I should blog. I haven't seriously blogged in ages and the feeling of NEEDING to blog is weighing heavily upon me. I have things to blog about, but I'm not sure how to put them in written form at the moment. I have a great many mixed feelings swirling around in me and I don't know what will come out as I try to type it all.

I've been very stressed the past few days or so... Things weighing heavily on my mind. Emotions running the gamut from elation to depression and from angry to hurt and all through everything in between. In a few days I may be able to explain that better and in more detail.

I went with Jill, her cousins Mark and Derek, and her aunt Chris to Dover this past weekend for the NASCAR race. I'm not a fan but it was time with the woman I love. However, most of the weekend Jill was tired, not feeling well and uncomfortable. Not the makings of a wonderful time. Overall, the weekend was pretty nice. Had a decent time when we weren't all jammed in the car like sardines. *shrugs*

I switched my schedule around so I can help out with some banquet at the firehall on Sat. I guess it's kinda expected of me. I'm not looking forward to it in the least. Not my kind of scene and to top it off, I won't even really get to see Jill amongst all this.

With a little more switching of my schedule I'm out of an eight day stretch and down to six straight days with a day off with Jill. *nods* Granted, it's a Tuesday... she'll have bingo and will end up blowing me off early in the evening... *sighs*

Work has been horrendous... I'm the one they all look to for guidance or when there is a problem, but I don't get paid enough for the headaches I have to put up with. We're two weeks out from inventory and it's getting close to crunch time.

On the upside of things... We're getting closer to being able to move in. Even with being scared about it, I'm very excited. Just Jill and I... our own place. I hope we still make time for each other and not take it for granted.... drifting further apart, living under the same roof.

Anyway... that's about it for now. I'm gone!