Happy Easter!

Mark 16

1 And when the sabbath was past, Mary Mag'dalene, and Mary the mother of James, and Salo'me, bought spices, so that they might go and anoint him. 2 And very early on the first day of the week they went to the tomb when the sun had risen. 3 And they were saying to one another, "Who will roll away the stone for us from the door of the tomb?" 4 And looking up, they saw that the stone was rolled back; --it was very large. 5 And entering the tomb, they saw a young man sitting on the right side, dressed in a white robe; and they were amazed. 6 And he said to them, "Do not be amazed; you seek Jesus of Nazareth, who was crucified. He has risen, he is not here; see the place where they laid him. 7 But go, tell his disciples and Peter that he is going before you to Galilee; there you will see him, as he told you." 8 And they went out and fled from the tomb; for trembling and astonishment had come upon them; and they said nothing to any one, for they were afraid. 9 Now when he rose early on the first day of the week, he appeared first to Mary Magdalene, from whom he had cast out seven demons. 10 She went and told those who had been with him, as they mourned and wept. 11 But when they heard that he was alive and had been seen by her, they would not believe it. 12 After this he appeared in another form to two of them, as they were walking into the country. 13 And they went back and told the rest, but they did not believe them. 14 Afterward he appeared to the eleven themselves as they sat at table; and he upbraided them for their unbelief and hardness of heart, because they had not believed those who saw him after he had risen. 15 And he said to them, "Go into all the world and preach the gospel to the whole creation. 16 He who believes and is baptized will be saved; but he who does not believe will be condemned. 17 And these signs will accompany those who believe: in my name they will cast out demons; they will speak in new tongues; 18 they will pick up serpents, and if they drink any deadly thing, it will not hurt them; they will lay their hands on the sick, and they will recover." 19 So then the Lord Jesus, after he had spoken to them, was taken up into heaven, and sat down at the right hand of God. 20 And they went forth and preached everywhere, while the Lord worked with them and confirmed the message by the signs that attended it. Amen.

Good Friday

I could talk about my day... or what's happening in my life. But I think I should talk about the holiday weekend that's goin on.




Today is called "Good Friday".... This is the day the only Son of our God was crucified to save our souls. Yes, a terrible thing, but the only atonement for sin is blood and the innocent blood of the only perfect man to walk this Earth atones for us all if we accept His gift. It's all as simple as that. Nothing fancy, nothing difficult, accept the gift and begin a relationship with the Living God and His Son. I'll leave you with that simple thought.

Colorgenics

Enough is enough - you feel frustrated and rejected. You are fighting back and the going is tough. It would be just wonderful if you could be left in peace.

Being impulsive and irritable, your desires and needs are paramount. You do things with insufficient thought - with little regard to the consequences that may follow. As a consequence of this attitude, you may be experiencing stress and conflict.

In spite of the fact that you believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, it is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influence and there is no-one to turn to or rely on. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offense, but as matters stand you realize that you will have to make the best of things as they are.

You are presently experiencing excessive stress as a result of self-restraint. You act and think differently from the common herd and you want to be liked and admired for yourself and to associate with people who feel and act as you do. Because of this need to be self-reliant and to break away from mediocrity, you are finding this situation most uncomfortable and you are experiencing considerable anxiety - perhaps even more than you feel the capacity to cope with. You need to find a 'soul mate', someone whose standards are as high as your own - but where? Keep on searching... The situation is uncomfortable and you would like to break away from it, but you refuse to compromise with your opinions. You are unable to resolve the situation because you are continually postponing the making of necessary decisions. You are stubborn but this is no deterrent to a happy life, so why drop your standards. Think positively, everything will work out. It has worked out successfully for you in the past and it will again in the future.

The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are beyond your capabilities, or your reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal inadequacy. Your inability to take control of the situation causes you to over-react in stubborn defiance blaming everyone but yourself for your own failures.

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stray thoughts

I'm not who you think I am, I can't be who you want me to be, I won't be what you expect me to be, I'm just me.

You cannot know someone else until you know yourself, but can you ever truly understand anyone?

The same fire that hardens metal, turns wood to ash...

The path to a goal is never as simple as it looks, the journey changes us and may make the goal unimportant.

Is being cautious a polite way of saying that fear of failure kept us from acting?

Is it more noble to try and fail multiple times than to try a few times and retreat from the fray?

Which is more forgiveable, doing something correct for the wrong reason, or doing something wrong for the correct reason?

Is it intent or action that is more important?

Are bravery and stupidity only seperated by their outcome?

These Ordinary Days

Ok, it's been a few days since I last blogged and that post was me being very upset. *nods* I'm still mad at wal-mart but it's not the raging, all consuming hatred that it was. Now it's an ever burning persistent force that keeps me looking for my way out.

I went to Christian's birthday party the other night. He's three now. He's a cute kid, but always into something. He's funny just like his daddy.

Yesterday I had off so I tried to take care of a few things. I went to my sister's to look at her computer for her and try to get her kid's games working. I went and bought a few DVD's and I worked on an order sheet for our sandwich sale. I also spent lots of time getting some information together about the trip to Indy for C3. Seth came over last night as well and we hung out for a bit. Good times!

Today? I'm supposed to get together with my sis, I wanna go to Seth's house and talk to his mom and I had thought about going to Best Buy. I doubt that last thing will happen though.

Anyway... I'm outtie!

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Wal-mart can kiss my booty!!!!

So today was my day off... I went shopping as I said I was gonna. I stopped by the store because today was the stakeholder cookout and I got some news... We no longer are getting any weekend off unless we request it. *nods* No wonder my meetings have been blown off the last coupla days... They were circling the wagons. I say screw them! I'm going to school and telling them where they can shove their greed and lust for power. I just asked for info from like six different schools, I am not gonna stay there any longer than I have to.


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just bust a move!

*does a little dance*

Ok... so today was a good day. Payday plus our bonus checks! Woohoo! Seth and I closed together and were blaring old rap songs. We had a good time.

Tomorrow? Big plans! Going shopping, gonna go crash the store's cookout since I'm off and probably get a haircut. Hopefully I can get mom and Aunt Sylv together too and go over hotel accomadations in Indy.

Oh and that meetting? Got blown off again. *shrugs* Go figure! They just don't wanna hear the truth I guess.

A'ight, I'm outtie!

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Yeah... it's me again!

Alright... so amongst all the crap that's going on in my life. Tonight's the best I've felt in days. I was supposed to have this meeting with my Dept. Mgr. and the Asst. Mgr. over our department today but that didn't happen. The District Manager showed up and well... they say they didn't have time for me today. Whatever! They were just afraid that I'd bring him into it and he'd agree with me. So I have this meeting with them tomorrow and I couldn't care less because I know I'm right so I just need to keep my cool and present my arguement. I've been told by another one of the Asst. Mgrs. that I have valid points so... *shrugs* I went to supper tonight with my mom and Monica, I haven't really hung with them for a while, and we live in the same house so that was kinda cool... and it was only for an hour so we didn't get on each other's nerves. Mom told me that she'll back me no matter what as long as I don't quit my job and become a bum. So I had a good ole time at work, acted a fool and now I'm home, gonna eat something, and play games!

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Behind the eyes

In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)


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Revelations of myself

As most of you know, I spend a lot of time (perhaps too much time) trying to understand humankind and myself in particular. It's not enough to know what is done, I need to know why and that leads to long periods where I'm deep in thought trying to wrap my mind around the contradictions of people. I've come to some realizations about myself that I'm not sure I'm particularly comfortable with. In an attempt to face these things I offer them here so that you and I both may understand me better.

I fear being hurt to the extent that I withdraw from unfamiliar circumstances.

I fear hurting others to the point that I inevitably hold back with them and by my actions trying to prevent them pain, end up causing it.

I try so hard to understand life that sometimes I just sit back and watch rather than live life.

I would rather be misunderstood than to explain myself and show that I care so that my feelings won't be used to hurt me.

I am passive at times to a fault and at others overly passionate that I am singleminded. I need balance.

I fear that I'll be seen for what I am... A scared, scarred person who's afraid of too much.

I feel that I am destined to be a vessel filled with fear and despair and as such become a conduit to others of the same. Through my fear and actions I have created a cycle that I must break or go through my life this way...

You don't know me like that!

"Hey, you want what with me?!
I'm gonna tell you one time, don't f**k with me!
Get down!
Beat his a**.. ain't got nothin' to lose,
and I'm havin a bad day,
don't make me take it out on you!
you want what with me?!
I'm gonna tell you one time, don't f**k with me!
Get down!
Beat his a**.. ain't got nothin' to lose,
and I'm havin a bad day,
don't make me take it out on you!
Maann, cause I don't wanna do that.
I wanna have a good time and enjoy my Jack..
sit back and watch some women get drunk as h**l,
so I can wake up in the mornin with a story to tell.
I know it's been a little while since I've been out the house,
but now I'm here.. you wanna stand around runnin' yo' mouth?
I can't hear nothing you sayin' or spittin', so what's up?
Don't you see we in the club?, man shut the f**k up!"

So what's been happening? I've been having some ups and downs lately. What else is new, right? *chuckles* Been working, hanging and all like usual. Got in trouble at work 'cause my fellow associates and I were talking about our schedules on the salesfloor and apparently a customer took offense at this and told management. I got one thing to say that idiot. "You don't know jack, if you woulda listened to us instead of overhearing and overreacting you woulda found out that we weren't running our company down but just pointing out an inequity and trying to solve it amongst ourselves. So get back because you don't know me like that!"

Hung out with Ashley last night and had a good time. We watched Constantine. Intriguing film if a bit... well, screwed up. LOL!

I'm tired... tired of fighting everything all the time. Tired of being told who and what I am, tired of being told what to do, tired of feeling alone. I'm even tired of trying to find somehow to show everyone that I'm searching to be better than I am and to live my life in a way that I won't regret when I'm old and looking back.

"Ee-Ee
(Whoop-Whoop)
Why you all in my ear?
Talkin' a whole bunch a sh*t that I ain't tryin to hear.
Get Back! Motherf***er
You don't know me like that.
Get back! Motherf***er
You don't know me like that!
Ee-Ee
(Whoop-Whoop)
I ain't playin' around..
Make one false move, I'll take ya down.
Get back! (Get Back)
You don't know me like that.
Get back! (Get Back)
You don't know me like that!
(Woooo!)

I came (I came), I saw (I saw),
I hit him right dead in the jaw
(in the jaw)
I came (I came), I saw (I saw),
I hit him right dead in the jaw
(in the jaw)
I came (I came), I saw (I saw),
I hit him right dead in the jaw
(in the jaw)
I came (I came), I saw (I saw),
I hit him right dead in the jaw
(in the jaw)"

*smacks computer*

Stupid thing just went nuts on me tonight... Somewhere somehow I lost my internet connection so I ended up having to reinstall the stupid dsl modem. *sighs* I was talking to a coupla friends when it went down and I'm sure both of them are wondering what happened to me. Oh well... *shrugs*

Work sucked and was cool tonight. *chuckles* I worked with Seth so hence the cool part. I had one mean sonuva... *clears throat*... I mean a rather difficult gentleman on the phone this evening. I need some time off from that joint. It just keeps getting worse and worse. Even Seth is afraid of going off on some idiot these days.

Anyway... I guess I'll go find something to do now that my night's been screwed up.