drenched in my pain again

So yesterday was a pretty good day... to start. I got up and the guy was here to hook up mom's new gas stove. I was running on very little sleep and wasn't into it. I guess I upset Monica in all that but hopefully I'll get to that later. I went shopping with Seth. I really enjoyed myself. It's been forever since he and I were out and about together. I came home and Mom and Monica had brought home the Christmas tree. So I decorated it last night.

In the middle of all this is where it happened.... I came home and something sparked again. Mom had three basic things that she pounded at me. I'm not who she thought I was, I apparently treat my family like crap and take no responsibility around here, and I'm not good for my word. She says she sees a lot of anger in me... That I act like my family is the enemy. Mom says that I disappoint her, that I hurt her, anger her.. but she still loves me even if I don't see it. She keeps telling me that I'm acting like a teenager and not an adult.

*sighs and shakes head*
I'm not writing anymore... I can't.