Not so late breaking news

Alright... Yeah, Jill was here last night. *grins* I'm still intoxicated just being with her. It's been five months (since July, right babe? *smirks*) and I'm still blown away every time I'm even near her. I'm the luckiest guy on the planet!

I got a little defensive with Mom tonight. I didn't mean to but it was like she was twisting a knife in my gut with her comment and I shot off. I was telling her about Jill saying that I could delete her pic from my comp and then asking where I even got that pic. I was telling mom about that particular picture and how it came from the fire dept. Mom had to comment on how she believes that I come AFTER the fire dept. in Jill's life. It hurt me. Mom of course says it struck a nerve because it's true.... I told her that it was because I still feel like I have to defend my relationship. Neither is totally true... nor totally false. Yes, I know Jill loves her fire dept. and I would NEVER, EVER ask her to give that up. It's a part of her and who she is. Yes, it's inconvenient and tiresome when she has obligations and things but I have to understand. And as far as me defending my relationship goes? Mom's been very good about it. I guess I'm just waiting for that to stop. For the chaos to start again. Like I have to be on guard and ever vigilant against it. Need to work on that, I guess... *furrows brow*

Oh! I didn't tell you that on my way home from shopping the other night... I was very upset. A deer decided to run into my car! Thankfully no major damage, just a barely perceptible dent in the driver side rear quarter panel, just above the wheel well. A scary experience but thankfully it all turned out ok.

I haven't written about work lately... What can I say? It's Christmas!!! I NEED out! I really pray that this is my last holiday season in retail.

Anyway... enough of my rambling gibberish. I'm outtie!