Mounting frustration
So I had a great Christmas and a wonderful New Year's. (I hope everyone else did as well.) Why are my frustrations mounting? *sighs* It's the same old song and dance. People won't let their noses out of Jill and I's relationship. It's even more difficult now that she is pregnant. I keep hearing all sorts of things from my mom and others but when Jill's around they all suddenly go silent. Why is that? They tell me all this crap about how they think things are going and how they think they should go but when it's both Jill and I... Not a peep. About our finances, about when we're getting married, about how they think I let Jill decide everything, about reality vs. idealism, about our being antisocial or rude, etc., etc., etc. It's all so frustrating. This is all between Jill and I. Not anyone else's concern. Yes, Jill and I have great family and friends who are involved in our lives but when it comes right down to it, it's her and I deciding what is right for our child and our relationship. I have such a hard time with this because I am not the vocal, outspoken type. When they all start piling on, I have a difficult time telling them where they stick it. *sighs* I hope we can move into our own place soon, I just want to get away from it all. I'm perfectly happy when it's just her and I, no one else involved. I appreciate everyone's concern but we're the ones living it. I just want to handle this one thing at a time. A place for us to live and bring our baby home to, welcoming our baby into this world and finally Jill and I becoming husband and wife. I know it's all out of order but as things stand right now it's the practical approach to my mind. Why add additional stress and concerns to an already hectic situation? Just to appease someone else and their sense of how things ought to be??? NO! I won't play that. All I want is for things to go as smoothly as possible for the mother of my child and for my baby to be born healthy and happy. Then we'll deal with other concerns. My priority is my child and the woman carrying that child. Their health and comfort not the concerns of anyone else. Thank you and good day!!!!
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