Half-hearted hope

I feel so... "blah" tonight. I have no clue why I feel the way I do. I can't even really explain how it is that I feel. It's like everything in my soul has been drowned by this wet blanket being wrapped around me and overwhelming me with a fog of listlessness. That's not even quite it but it's the best explanation I can give. All I want tonight is to curl up in the arms of the woman I love and let it all pass. In her arms I feel safe, protected, loved and I KNOW everything will be ok. Unfortunately she works tonight and I have to be at work early in the morning so my only hope is for sleep to take me quickly and pray I'm better in the morning. This weekend I'll get to spend a ton of time with Jill and I hope it's a huge dose of the medicine that keeps this particular illness at bay... I hate feeling this way. Anyway... I'm going to bed and if I'm lucky I'll dream beautiful dreams of my sweetie.