The Good, The Bad and The Stressful

So this is day three of my vacation. *nods* I'm loving it and hating it all at the same time. I guess I should just start at the beginning and let you draw your own conclusions.

I stayed up kinda late Friday night knowing that I was on vacation. Saturday morn my mom wakes me up around 10 or 10:30. She was all stressing about my sister's birthday present and babysitting my nieces. So with very little sleep I got up and we went to pick out my sister's present and then to the grocery store to pick up a few things. Anyway... Jill was supposed to come down Sat. morning but she called me and told me that she hadn't gotten any sleep. She explained about having gone on an ambulance call and a few other things. I told her not to worry and to get some sleep. So my sister arrived with the girls and I was kina keeping an eye out for Jill to arrive. Jill never came until late because she had fallen back asleep. *shrugs* My brother-in-law came and got the girls around 9:15 and Jill and I retired to watch a movie.

Sunday morning I woke up and starting cooking. We all just kinda sat around and relaxed. Jill left sometime around 4:30 and of course Mom and I did the usual Sunday routine of visiting the grandparent's. We got back home around ten and I had a message from the state police to call them. One of the guys from work applied to be a state trooper and listed me as a reference. I called Jill then and she came back down and hung out Sunday night.

Today, Jill and I just kinda hung out watching tv. Mom came home tonight and after Jill left was asking me about our situation here. I have a hard time seeing it objectively because my heart is wrapped up in it. Mom talked about how Jill kinda camping here affects her and Monica. How she thinks I'm just kinda going with whatever Jill wants and jumping in with both feet. How she thinks Jill has some sort of control over me because I was worried when she didn't show up when I thought she shoulda. What can I say? I've never experienced anything like this before. I've never felt this comfortable with anyone in my life before. She just allows me to be me, with no expectations and no apologies required. Is it a crime if I worry about her sometimes? Anyway... I called the police and the trooper I was to speak with had left for the day. Then I called the garage and they told me that my car would be done this evening. So we went and picked up my car and then I had to drive tonight! The bummer is that the check engine light came back on right before I made it back home.

So there it is... you can make whatever conclusions you want to from that. I had a great weekend in some respects and in others it just was crappy.