An attempt at being coherent

Ok... so I really should blog. I just don't know how well this will go. I have so many thoughts and feelings swirling through my heart and mind.

Let's start with news...

Nothing major really going on with me. Work, sleep, video games, and the usual pastimes. Been beating my brains out looking for what I want to get Jill for her birthday. Been shopping online and in stores more the past week or two than I'd like. But this has gotta be perfect! Ummm... Oh! I got a phone call the other night... from my old high school girlfriend. What a weird feeling that was. Here I am talking to the chick who broke my heart back when I was seventeen and helped turn me into a cynic. She's married with four kids and calling me... *shakes head* I don't know why. Someone suggested that she now realizes that she made a mistake all those years ago... I dunno. Oh and yes! I'm soooo excited! I've got a nice long vacation coming up! Eleven whole days with no work! Seven of those days I should have the house all to myself too! woohoo!!!! *does a little dance*

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. *smirks* I know... I think alot. Sometimes it's not so good...but it's part of who I am. I've been thinking about love, life, fears, feelings... You name it. Trying to put it all into words. *shakes head* It's almost impossible. The raw emotions are so overwhelming that they just pool there and a person could drown in them. I truly believe it's important to tell those you care about how you feel... it's just so hard sometimes. I want to say it, but I want to say it right and that's where it gets difficult.

I got to talking to Jill about that phone call I had... Made me think about how much we don't know about each other. Our pasts and things... Jill was telling me that my past doesn't matter. She loves me for who I am now and nothing is gonna change that. She got me to thinking about how that story I blogged the other day defined true love... "True love is neither physical nor romantic, but rather it's an acceptance of what is, what was, what will be and what will NOT be. I'm so amazed by it all... Just wish I could put it all together into words.

Anyway.. enough of my rambling for tonight... I'm outtie!

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