Embrace the Darkness

Yes... the solitude of the darkness is my escape again. I have returned to the confines of the dark corners of my mind and my life the past day or two. I hide in the dark because in the light I don't know how to deal with life. I wish I did but it all seems beyond me. My life is what I have made it... but that's not what hurts right now. What hurts is the fact that I have friends out there who I wish I could help but I'm powerless to do anything to even console them.

If our reality is based on our perceptions then in the darkness the only thing I perceive is the solitude. The feeling that I'm the only being on the planet.

I know that seems horrible...

I wish I could reach out to everyone whom I care about... I wish I could deal with my problems and help you with yours.

What can I do? Where does the strength come from? How can I share whatever it is I find?

I will find my answers... I will search through the darkness that I know so well. The same darkness that was once my security blanket. The darkness that I have fought against for a LONG time but that I've finally come to accept.

Now I'm off to search... but I'll leave you with this...

"Regardless of what anybody believes who hates me
You ain't gonna make or break me
Tryin' strip me of my credibility and make me look fake, G
You're only gonna be in for a rude awakening
Cuz sooner or later you haters are all gonna face me"

--- Eminem