An Epiphany

I've come to a conclusion and I'm not sure I'm comfortable with it. I have come to realize that I wanted a relationship so badly that I was just happy to be wanted, even if it was only for a little while. Don't get me wrong, I still think that the little chica was and is a sweetheart but she probably wasn't all that right for me. I wanted her to be right so badly that I blinded myself to it. She's done me a favor in cutting me loose and I am grateful. I have been alone so long that I'm not sure how to act in a relationship anymore... I can't just let it come free and easy... I try to push and that's just not good. I still want a relationship badly. I want to spend loads of quality time with someone... I want to try to make someone happy. To bring joy to someone's life because through their joy I am happy. I need to find another romantic soul who is content just curling up all evening watching a movie... who likes to be surprised by flowers... who doesn't mind that I like to sit and stare into their eyes and want them to tell me everything... Applications available from my personal assistant... ROTFL! I'm outtie!